Do you know how sad and angry and pek chek i feel when i saw your photo with him at the hotel.. i can just imagine a lot of things happening, of cos not to the extent of having .... but still intimate stuff will happen.... its like you just left my life not long ago and everything tat i fear happen just happen. and they come quickly. cut deep down into my heart. i know i have no control and shld not even have a fucking control of your life. but i just wan to say i feel freaking ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just feel like telling the time to speed up.. speed up so tat i can just ignore you... ignore whatever things you do with him.... fuck this shit.. just ignore me...  though i think u ignored me long ago.. avoid me long ago... but please protect yourself.... please... i beg you... still wishing you happiness... ............................