Once again 28th... y does 28th always have unforgettable memories... today is the day tat reali change my life in npcc..... u do not have to suffer by yourself... eating pills and panadols dun help.... i dun have the right to say anything but u reali do not have to torture urself.....
perfect is reali a nice song... cuz we lost it all...nth lasts forever.... im sorry.... i cant be perfect.... now it justs too late... and we cant go back... im sorry... i cant be perfect.... reali suits me ba...... guilty i shall be... i shld not even have taken the first step to like u... otherwise u wun be like tis now.... but quitting npcc isnt the way ba... i still have the sms which u promise me tat u will have confidence and pass ur 3rd class... yup.. u made it... but how bout the others? u still have a long way to go in npcc... dun cos of tis, choose to quit.... u have moved so far, its not worth it....
its reali my fault, i shld have drawn a line between instructors and juniors at the first place... but i have already taken tis step... sorry to someone who have given me tis advice long ago.. but i never reali tink bout it.. now then i realise le ba...
now i dun even dare to tag ur blog or sms u... maybe i shld reali vanish in front of u... maybe i shld not even exist in ur world in the 1st place... but wat done have already been done... yup... now its just too late and we have lost it all... we cant go back anymore.... so yup, take care ba......
Friday, November 28, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Im reali Sry....
Just return from hongKong.. shall not explain the travel day by day.. or else dunno when then can type finish... but its reali fun and made many friends... recognising ea other strengths and weaknesses.. the most important thing is that i have a "family there"... Xavier-papa.. Jiawei-Da ge... Jackson- Er ge... MeiYing- ZehZeh... Yiluan- MeiMei... MaMa-??? lol... yup.. we reali have fun there, happiness and sorrow.... will miss all of u all.......
Im sooooo stupid.. i made a stupid mistake again... i shld not have ..... but wat said is said... onli hope tat u dun be sad and hurt urself.... if u wan hate me, i have nth to say... but i reali hope tat we can return to the past... its not bout yi ju liang de thing... but its reali my fault....... we dun need to like tis ba.... during the trip, i keep tink bout it... i admit i cant forget u and the past tat we had since the time i takeover ur squad..... i still cant forget now... but wat can i do now? haix... reali confuse and dunno how to express to u........ im not worth it..... i still remember u said u wan everyone to hate u and tat i replied i wun.... till now, i still wun even if u hate me....... i aso remember tat u say if u angry or sad, wan hit ppl.... u can just hit me all u wan.... hit until i bruised aso can de....... i just owe u too much...... i know tat now being friends are already hard to say le ba...... but i onli hope tat u dun sad can le... dun expect much le.... dun cos of me dun go npcc.... its reali not worth it... i tink forget me will make u feel better ba..... if tats it, forget me and i shall try to vanish from u ba..... but be4 tat, i reali wish tat u dun hurt urself..... bye..........
Im sooooo stupid.. i made a stupid mistake again... i shld not have ..... but wat said is said... onli hope tat u dun be sad and hurt urself.... if u wan hate me, i have nth to say... but i reali hope tat we can return to the past... its not bout yi ju liang de thing... but its reali my fault....... we dun need to like tis ba.... during the trip, i keep tink bout it... i admit i cant forget u and the past tat we had since the time i takeover ur squad..... i still cant forget now... but wat can i do now? haix... reali confuse and dunno how to express to u........ im not worth it..... i still remember u said u wan everyone to hate u and tat i replied i wun.... till now, i still wun even if u hate me....... i aso remember tat u say if u angry or sad, wan hit ppl.... u can just hit me all u wan.... hit until i bruised aso can de....... i just owe u too much...... i know tat now being friends are already hard to say le ba...... but i onli hope tat u dun sad can le... dun expect much le.... dun cos of me dun go npcc.... its reali not worth it... i tink forget me will make u feel better ba..... if tats it, forget me and i shall try to vanish from u ba..... but be4 tat, i reali wish tat u dun hurt urself..... bye..........
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Now is like 5.15am le.. successfully didnt sleep for 1 whole day le... no tired at all... dunno y... yup.. so i never break promise le.. prove to u im sry le.... YEAHHH.... i never know i cause u to be so pek chek and hurt..... IM SORRY..... can u forgive me??? Paiseh, tok till ur hp no batt>.<
Later going to type out timetable for sec3 for tis coming fri camp le... chiong from 2am till now de leh... tink so much lor.... yup.. i wun be attending any p.ts or endurance run le.... its supposed to be a bad thing as i rather exercise more than have tis injured leg... haix... Movements so diff now lor.. sian... even stand stationary a while aso will feel "suan".... feel my leg so useless..... but nvm ba, can help in preparing the meals for sec3.... hope the food dun turns out bad... if so, forgive me, sec3=p.....
Yesterday went to hta for hong kong trip briefing... at first is like so sian... but in the end, it turns out not bad, as we interact and make many many new friends... my grp going to perform a short fancy drill cum cheer... somemore going to hentak lor.. dunno if my leg can ta1 han1 or not.... but nvm ba... yup.... bet im going to have a lot of fun during the 17th-23rd Nov ba.... but of course, i will miss u all de.... Still wondering wat to buy for Mei......
later going school at 10am... going to help gavin do the cert thing and some ration stuff.... yup... better start on my timetable now..... cya... =)
Later going to type out timetable for sec3 for tis coming fri camp le... chiong from 2am till now de leh... tink so much lor.... yup.. i wun be attending any p.ts or endurance run le.... its supposed to be a bad thing as i rather exercise more than have tis injured leg... haix... Movements so diff now lor.. sian... even stand stationary a while aso will feel "suan".... feel my leg so useless..... but nvm ba, can help in preparing the meals for sec3.... hope the food dun turns out bad... if so, forgive me, sec3=p.....
Yesterday went to hta for hong kong trip briefing... at first is like so sian... but in the end, it turns out not bad, as we interact and make many many new friends... my grp going to perform a short fancy drill cum cheer... somemore going to hentak lor.. dunno if my leg can ta1 han1 or not.... but nvm ba... yup.... bet im going to have a lot of fun during the 17th-23rd Nov ba.... but of course, i will miss u all de.... Still wondering wat to buy for Mei......
later going school at 10am... going to help gavin do the cert thing and some ration stuff.... yup... better start on my timetable now..... cya... =)
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Nowadays... i just have a weird feeling... but i cant say out.. cos a few ppl might get hurt... so its better to keep it to myself... be bak to normal is reali diff... aiyah... let nature take its course ba... i knew it might leaked out one day or so... yup... but im reali bothered and smth reali upset over tis thing... haix..... tats y i say i hate myself smth.....
Sian, today at first is dun go slp de.. then send my 2nd sis to the airport... at first is wan ren3 till 4 plus de.. but i 3 plus totally shag le... lie on the sofa.... com still on... light still on... lol... then 5plus wake up, saw her wearing shoe le... then i dunno y go lie on my own bed... then never send her off... haix... sry hor sis... and bon vogage....
Today is 9th NOV.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEE HONG!!!!!!! Hope u have best wishes....=)
Npcc room is going to have more life le... Yesterday, me, soonHuat, Jacky, Yujian and Jianboon went fishing at the yishun pond there... lol..illegal de.... lol..... 1st time leh... yup.. we make a simple fishing rod which costs like $2.70 leh... then went off fishing le... tat day is the 1st time i pick up a mealworm leh... so brave hor? lol... we keep joke wat will fish some mermaid out... yujian damn lucky lor... within 10mins, he fish up le... average size but looks big to me already, the breeed is wat hou2 gou3... then after tat jianboon's bait get half eaten... but he still throw it out.. and caught a guppy.. lol... not long later, he caught another average size fish, same breed as yujian.... me and Huat never caught anything... tsk... next time ba.. we decided to keep the fishes... went to buy a fish tank, anti chlorine and oxygen pump... then set up in the NPCC room... so honoured to be one of the pioneer in starting up tis fish tank.. hope tml, the fish still alive ba... lol... and the guppy wun get eaten.... Shall let u all see some photos of the fishes......
Sian, today at first is dun go slp de.. then send my 2nd sis to the airport... at first is wan ren3 till 4 plus de.. but i 3 plus totally shag le... lie on the sofa.... com still on... light still on... lol... then 5plus wake up, saw her wearing shoe le... then i dunno y go lie on my own bed... then never send her off... haix... sry hor sis... and bon vogage....
Today is 9th NOV.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEE HONG!!!!!!! Hope u have best wishes....=)
Npcc room is going to have more life le... Yesterday, me, soonHuat, Jacky, Yujian and Jianboon went fishing at the yishun pond there... lol..illegal de.... lol..... 1st time leh... yup.. we make a simple fishing rod which costs like $2.70 leh... then went off fishing le... tat day is the 1st time i pick up a mealworm leh... so brave hor? lol... we keep joke wat will fish some mermaid out... yujian damn lucky lor... within 10mins, he fish up le... average size but looks big to me already, the breeed is wat hou2 gou3... then after tat jianboon's bait get half eaten... but he still throw it out.. and caught a guppy.. lol... not long later, he caught another average size fish, same breed as yujian.... me and Huat never caught anything... tsk... next time ba.. we decided to keep the fishes... went to buy a fish tank, anti chlorine and oxygen pump... then set up in the NPCC room... so honoured to be one of the pioneer in starting up tis fish tank.. hope tml, the fish still alive ba... lol... and the guppy wun get eaten.... Shall let u all see some photos of the fishes......
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Truth usually appears when one dun reali expect it.. smth its diff to explain how things come by... haix... y cant we just return to our childhood times, where we have the least to fret about... when we wun get so confused and bothered by the slightest bit of things...
Friday Npcc, maybe the CI is right... im dun have the overall image... i cant control unit well... i do not wan it to be ruined in my yr.... but will it? i wun let it get so easily destroyed de... i promise tat i will work hard to be a good overall already and will be one... But smth, i just will put tat slightest bit of emotion inside it... i have decided to forget u... but whenever i see u, i will just feel a forward force pushing me... i try to look at other places but its like so haix... but i just can't control.... but seriously its hard to... i cant treat tat nth had happened... yup.. i cant deny i dun have feelings towards u now... but im reali trying to change... i dunno wat u are tinking now... can give me an ans? if u dun wan, im ok with it....like wat u say, its better to suffer now than later... so be assurred, i will try to change.... its a long time since we sms ea other those long sms le... reali miss the times...
Overall is a status... Promise is made last time... do u remember it? we agreed tat we will not be quarreling after the decision is made... yup... we did it... but now the conflict is between other parties... do u know tat i reali dunno where to stand at.... if i stand at one side, other side will say tat im bias.... i dun wan our friendship to be just shattered like tat... Friends are forever... dun u agree? so y not both of u just compromise ea other and stop tis silent conflict... i reali hope u 2 could...
Yesterday is my cousin, Ming Xia 21st birthday...went her house for birthday party... eat so much, fat liao.... then somemore the dog(jack russel) tat they brought to their house is like so noisy.... i see the other side of dog.... not the gentle side... but the scary side... i dunno if it had changed my view of keeping a dog in the future.. lol... played basketball when it suddenly dash out of the house... and ran towards me... i ran with the ball... and its like chasing me like mad... im dropped the ball.. but tried to pick it up lest the ball will hurt its nose.... it is reali determind to grab hold of the ball, lucky have many parents help to stop it... wow... i reali have a shock... but i still love dogs... most prob pomeranian or collie.... oh, btw... HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY AH XIA!!!
Sian, extended programme is like so -.-.... say nicely, its an enrichment programme... if wan me to say the truth, its hell.... End of Year exam had just ended... but another series of exams are coming very soon. 4 important exams in my life... O level Chinese and 3 Science Spa... Plus 1 more A maths test... Haix... So many things to handle, still add more and more stuff... going mad soon.... Its reali hard to enjoy life...........
Friday Npcc, maybe the CI is right... im dun have the overall image... i cant control unit well... i do not wan it to be ruined in my yr.... but will it? i wun let it get so easily destroyed de... i promise tat i will work hard to be a good overall already and will be one... But smth, i just will put tat slightest bit of emotion inside it... i have decided to forget u... but whenever i see u, i will just feel a forward force pushing me... i try to look at other places but its like so haix... but i just can't control.... but seriously its hard to... i cant treat tat nth had happened... yup.. i cant deny i dun have feelings towards u now... but im reali trying to change... i dunno wat u are tinking now... can give me an ans? if u dun wan, im ok with it....like wat u say, its better to suffer now than later... so be assurred, i will try to change.... its a long time since we sms ea other those long sms le... reali miss the times...
Overall is a status... Promise is made last time... do u remember it? we agreed tat we will not be quarreling after the decision is made... yup... we did it... but now the conflict is between other parties... do u know tat i reali dunno where to stand at.... if i stand at one side, other side will say tat im bias.... i dun wan our friendship to be just shattered like tat... Friends are forever... dun u agree? so y not both of u just compromise ea other and stop tis silent conflict... i reali hope u 2 could...
Yesterday is my cousin, Ming Xia 21st birthday...went her house for birthday party... eat so much, fat liao.... then somemore the dog(jack russel) tat they brought to their house is like so noisy.... i see the other side of dog.... not the gentle side... but the scary side... i dunno if it had changed my view of keeping a dog in the future.. lol... played basketball when it suddenly dash out of the house... and ran towards me... i ran with the ball... and its like chasing me like mad... im dropped the ball.. but tried to pick it up lest the ball will hurt its nose.... it is reali determind to grab hold of the ball, lucky have many parents help to stop it... wow... i reali have a shock... but i still love dogs... most prob pomeranian or collie.... oh, btw... HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY AH XIA!!!
Sian, extended programme is like so -.-.... say nicely, its an enrichment programme... if wan me to say the truth, its hell.... End of Year exam had just ended... but another series of exams are coming very soon. 4 important exams in my life... O level Chinese and 3 Science Spa... Plus 1 more A maths test... Haix... So many things to handle, still add more and more stuff... going mad soon.... Its reali hard to enjoy life...........
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